2016最後一次月會

應該也是唯一一次跟你站在同一個台上領獎
應該也是最後一次有你的月會吧
那時候看到授獎人員名單暗自竊喜了一下下 哈哈哈
其實大五未必會來只是還是希望你會來
進了醫院就真的更少交集了啊生活圈
“禮正 敬禮 禮畢” 長官都不需要再多說什麼啊 
你是那麼的熟悉
你還是一樣耀眼
I can't take my eyes off of you 

我始終沒說不增加你負荷 ——全世界誰傾聽你
看到了就當做沒看到吧 我真的不知道要怎麼回應 哈哈 

期末加油 QAQ

忙裡偷閒

It seems like most things are settled and I have a short period of time to myself.. and it is actually an illusion cz exams are coming up soon, starting next week. Finals. Yes. All kinds of reports, that I'm catching up right now lol to ensure sufficient time to do my studying. hehehe

School anniversary ended last Saturday, so did all kinds of practice. I'm really glad that juniors from the ballroom dance club are very cute and treat dancing seriously like I do. I got really angry when my partner kept leaving the juniors' stuff to me. Of course I know everyone has their own priorities. I just can't help that :( People who dance but don't treat dance seriously give me a bad impression.
There was a ballroom dance competition the next day, I couldn't even pass any of the preliminaries. I don't wanna think that it's because of my partner but I guess I can really blame him to some extent cz he hasn't shown up in our club for quite a long time (due to his injury while jogging, but he recovered quite soon, leaving him no reason, right?) I was really mad and frustrated.

Okay. Now I should stop procrastinating and start studying cz time would pass so fast that I wouldn't be able to suit myself to the hectic lifestyle again if I keep lazing like this.

第一次搶票 + M112授袍

到底哪個比較重要呢
哈哈哈 在我放任電腦自己跑的時候就已經做了決定
雖然還是錯過了他的致詞
她們說他說的很好
雖然跟自己說好就這樣了
但是授袍的前一晚還是做了卡片給他

ㄧㄤ先生，恭喜你授袍了
雖然我們有時候連點頭之交都不算
能夠遇到你真的覺得自己很幸運
希望你依舊如此細膩

很愛很愛五月天

也很喜歡M112期的小家學姐們

授袍只有一次 可是五月天演唱會還會有的

我還跟小貝約好要一起去的

所以還是跑去授袍了

學姐們真的都好美

真的覺得可以熬到授袍的學長姐 都好厲害

雖然見習在醫院也只是路障 只願他們比別人的路障潛質少一些些 xD

“一次一次你 吞下了淚滴 一點一點拼回破碎自己 ”

失落總會有 無力總會有 要振作起來

雖然這一次真的考砸了 甚至還有一科不及格 

大學其實不用怕被當 老師當人要寫報告

但真的覺得自己很糟糕

轉念一想自己似乎有念 只是不知道為什麼會這樣

或許真的要學會決定吧

倘若要在社團付出一定的心力，就要有犧牲課業的決心

只是為什麼

哎

給一直在等的你們

最終妳感動的只有妳自己。

Stressed

And a little pissed off.
Days have been busy and we're just done interviewing the juniors.
I find it very hard to make decision since they're all very talented.
I really wonder how our seniors chose us from the others. We take their personalities and talents into consideration, everyone has a say in their thoughts and recommend the juniors they know.
It isn't fair and I think the discussion caused a little conflict within us. I'm just naive. I hope that we have similar choices so we don't fight and our juniors can work well together. But it's really hard. Selecting and kicking people.
I don't think I did well in my interview last year.
Stressed because a batch of our seniors fought with their seniors and they left together. I'm afraid our choice, if wrong, might lead to that. I don't want the same thing to happen. Haih.

給心痛的妳們

其實我們都有那種突然的心痛
突然之間的失去安全感
然後發現自己一直以來的堅持在別人眼裡看來像是一場鬧劇

很多事情本來就是徒勞無功的。
有些事情真的勉強不來
我們都知道
只是要瞭解而且接受真的很困難

沒有人可以阻止妳對別人的好
這世界上沒有那麼清楚的對錯
一件事情背後的故事有很多人
每個人的想法跟看法不會一樣
我們何必這麼在乎別人的看法?
所以女孩如果妳覺得值得的話
就去做
不要後悔
心累心痛想放棄
就放棄
說得直白一點
妳那麼努力
感動的只有妳自己。

不需要遺忘
那是一段美好的青春回憶
她或許最後還是沒有接受妳
可是妳知道妳自己因為她變了
妳跟她的時光往往是閃耀著的
那段回憶不得磨滅
不用刻意遺忘
現在妳或許覺得自己不會再那麼喜歡一個人
現在就像是把自己掏空
自己的一部分被硬生生地挖開
這會持續很久很久一段時間
不見面也還是一樣
她存在妳腦海的臉依舊鮮明
妳甚至會幻聽
這像是在戒毒癮
再堅持下去對自己的心靈不健康
所以得戒
Let's just give the time some time.
妳會放下的
她會好好的
妳們會往前走的。

Orientation Performance

The performances for club activities finally ended!!
I think we did just okay hahaha
somehow there was some problem with the speaker so they had to use RG's (another club which hosts most of the activities in our school) speaker
the speaker problem occurred during the tap dance club's performance, which was 2~3 clubs before ballroom dance.. Fortunately the performances ended well. THE WHOLE THING LASTED UNTIL ALMOST 2300 hours!!
I think I had a great breakthrough hahhha my costume was bareback ❤
Anyway I kind of hope there would be many juniors joining ballroom dance club but also not HAHAHA cz I'd be the one guiding them @@ they'd have their first performance by the end of November but we'd be busy doing our volunteering group stuff x.x

I'm not sure if I expected to see him show up, since he's already in his fifth year, but he's always been active and helpful in these things. I couldn't help grinning when I saw him on stage helping with the speaker.I don't know my thoughts even.

What should I do?

I feel so bad for forgetting a meeting I was supposed to attend to.
I guess this not only left a bad impression on our group but also on my credit.
I really care a lot on my impression to people.
It's annoying.
I don't want to care so much :(
I feel that it's me giving myself a lot of stress.
I dislike this me.
How to stay cheerful and all that?
I don't even want to bother the others about this. I know that this is my own problem. Will I ever change my thoughts? It's all up to me, right? I've been caring for so long that it's became a habit, and a habit is hard to change.

New School Year

My sem starts earlier than the others by.. I guess almost a month if you include those military training thingy. The first week of formal classes just passed and yesterday was holiday due to the Armed Forces Day, which is today. Lol. How ironic, I don't get a holiday on 31/08 for Hari Kemerdekaan but I get a holiday on 02/09 as a military school student, in Taiwan.

People often say to look for bf in Taiwan and marry a Taiwanese. Lol you think very easy ahh? hahaa. Anyway, that's not the main point. I actually fell into deep thought a few days ago when someone talked to me about this again, and I thought, "but I miss home." If that was really the case, I would have to leave my hometown and spend my time in a foreign land, without my family. When I just came here, I told people that I still don't know to stay or to leave Taiwan after graduating. But I guess I can't really leave my family, huh? I don't know. Perhaps things would change again after graduating. It seems like Taiwan graduates need to be R for two years in MY hospitals after passing the MY Med test, in order to be recognized, or something like that.. 

Okay. So anyway, the question above reminded me of my air tickets :D and as quick as a flash, (of course with the help of mum and xiaojiu), hahaha, tickets for CNY and summer hols are both settled :D I'm already looking forward to CNY though I don't have new clothes yet :((

Ohh and I might be taking the challenge to be the leader of our volunteering group for 16/17, idk yet lol. Don't really feel like making myself too busy but it seems like there aren't many who are suitable, and those who are are either already too busy or unavailable due to some family problems. Grr. I don't like leading, I kind of know that after being a TL for a year (and I did nothing too! haha I feel sorry for Jon)

Currently I have a part-time job, the wage per hour isn't low, mostly keying in things so I guess it's quite easy since it's just typing. But it's just until this year end. So it's only 3 months. I do hope that they still lack manpower so I can earn some $$$ for myself. Oh and I paid my fees with my hard-earned money from the military training. Hahaha. It's just a sem but I was very happy :) I guess this is the advantage of studying in a military school? 

Lessons starting this sem are important, they would come out in the National Test for Medicine in Taiwan during summer when I go from 4th grade to 5th grade. Gotta take this thing seriously. Can't afford to fail. Heard that it's hard to have time to study when we start our practice in the hospital, and our course has been adjusted so instead of being a 7-year course, it's now a 6-year course. x_x

19 days in Nepal, shining in Nepal (part 2)

"Tonight" has been delayed until now haha sorry for the blank promise. Days start to be busy, fully packed with various schedules. However, ShiNepal is doing their best, preparing post-work report for our sponsors and also preparing for our orientation.
Let's go back in time and talk about the times in Nepal. So. When we reaches Nepal, Gautam and the fellow volunteers of Metta Volunteers came and picked us up. We were given a warm welcome upon leaving the departure gate. It made me look forward to the days coming. The Metta Volunteers helped us a lot. Not only did they carry our SUPER HEAVY LUGGAGE on bus (some on the bus top!!), they prepared our drinking water (knowing we might laosai if we drank like them from tap) and accommodation. Most of the time we stayed in Gautam's house. Oh and btw, Gautam is the leader of Metta Volunteers.
Nepal is a country with a lot of power cut. Walking around Nepal, you catch dust in your hair, wiping your face with a wet tissue after a long bus trip is very refreshing. The sun scorching so strongly, makes you feel like being BBQ-ed. Oh and their numbers are different from what we are familiar to, Amy pointed out, "Hey! I can't read their car plate numbers!!". The road condition is quite bad, perhaps similar to kampungs in Malaysia. This might be the aftermath of the quake.

19 days in Nepal, shining in Nepal (part 1)

I've wanted to dedicate a post to my volunteering work in Nepal ever since I made it back to Taiwan but I thought I was a little too public to post it on facebook. So since my blog seldom has visitors, I decided to post here. There wouldn't be pictures, I guess. It's hard for me to upload them with phone haha maybe I'll edit the pics in after a few days though.

Okay.
So this volunteering thing is actually compulsory to the students in my college, it depends on the course you're taking whether you need to volunteer for 1/2/3 years. For the public health students, they only get to serve in their first summer here, then the next summer EMT 2 course awaits. Dentistry, pharmacy and nursing courses' students have to do this volunteering work for two years, and medicine students three.
Fyi, there are actually many groups in our school for this volunteering thing, some in Taiwan and some out in other countries. I'd like to list out some groups in our schools that require an interview in order to gain membership of them, Medical Camp in Taiwan, 柬(jian)愛(ai) in Cambodia, 築(zhu)孟(meng) in India, Thai sweet in Thailand, Calcutta group, Mongolia group and of course ShiNepal.
The interview was around mid of October and I decided to go for ShiNepal (known as The Big Bang, TBB then) and Mongolia group and I got ShiNepal.
And so, we held ice breaking for new members, designed fund raising goods, prepared for our courses that are to be taught in Nepal, Christmas gift exchange and a group trip. All these preparations gave me a lot of stress and I felt a little worried when we couldn't do really well during our course check (when seniors look at us teach), I was reluctant to go. Besides, we were having our EMT course in another place where we had little free time to discuss and prepare for our work, it was really a rush since after the EMT course was summer holidays and then we'd be going to Nepal. I felt that we were not so prepared.
Still we departed. With posters for courses, luggage packed full with medicine and some stationery we managed to raise, we departed.
I feel that this is going to be a super long post lol. I promise I'll update, gonna take a nap.
Maybe tonight.

陽光沙灘仙人掌 - 澎湖

this is going to be a very long post lol

actually..

just a lot of pics with caption hahaha

耶!! 乘船初體驗 (if not considering the 50-sen sampan trips to the old DUN)

興奮地拍了岸邊的美麗風景坐到船艙吃著蔡馥如一早特地買的豆菜面和豬血湯

其實那天早上吃了麥當當的 大早餐但是也消化得6677了

為什麼不是7788? 因為其實還是有一點飽 哈哈

跟張羿晨一起分了那包面之後船就開了

然後我吃了暈船藥但還是按耐不住想吐的慾望

於是我華麗麗地把豐盛的早餐都浪費掉了 QQ

沒關係 這樣我就有更空的肚子來等著我填飽了哈哈哈哈

這是網絡上還蠻有名的馬路益燒肉飯

餓了所以覺得很好吃哈哈哈

其實蠻特別的我覺得

那個燒肉焦脆香甜似乎有一點點蜂蜜

好啦我也不知道反正很好吃 這是午餐

然後我們吃完午餐就跑到隘門金沙灘玩水上活動了

很囧的是那邊沒有淋浴間所以回到轉角公寓民宿的時候

頭髮卡了沙全身散發著海的味道夾雜著一點點的防曬乳香

這是民宿圖 哈哈 老闆娘毛毛人很好 熱情好客

距離民宿約10分鐘腳程的西瀛虹橋

跟毛毛說的一樣 怎麼拍怎麼美

btw 我都沒修圖

那邊少見的甜點店名字我沒有特別去記

蠻靠近四眼井的

其實我覺得味道不錯 但有點偏甜 畢竟我不偏好重口味

那邊的特產 黑糖糕

這家是遊客常買的

比較有黑糖味 哈哈

另一家的比較Q 其實都不錯

青菜蘿蔔各有所愛

滷味耶耶耶

路上看到的可愛店面

玉冠仙草

我們也真的熱瘋了

每天都來一份 可惜第一天晚上挫冰賣完只好吃仙草凍

但他的珍珠太Q了 不是很愛 但有紅豆芋圓地瓜圓 ╮(╯▽╰)╭

民宿給的早餐卷

60元土魠米粉羹

土魠魚很鮮嫩!!

第二天就是要到澎湖附近的小島看看啦

望安跟七美

這是望安花宅聚落

因為綠蠵龜博物館裡面沒有活的綠蠵龜所以

我們不花錢進去就在它的紀念品區晃晃

這是綠蠵龜造型的黑糖棒

這裡開始是七美

捕捉旅人的雙心石滬

只有番茄醬味的仙人掌炒飯

回到澎湖

跑去買了毛毛推薦的蔬脆蛋餅 超好吃!! 35元料好實在

下午回來幸好有在地人 昕蕓 還有她爸爸載我們四處去才有了這麼豐富的行程

這只有一棵榕樹你信嗎?!

易家仙人掌冰淇淋

黃色的部分是哈密瓜冰淇淋

澎湖跨海大橋

鯨魚洞 @ 小門

民宿外觀

哈哈哈 民宿在市區 很多熱鬧的地方走走就到了

小七三件79折所以就買了

其實喝酒也是蠻愜意的

起碼那時候可以任腦袋放空

哦對了 啤酒喝涼 這我最親的媽在我們泰國遊我差點發燒的時候告訴我的 \(^o^)/

一廂情願, 就得願賭服輸。 - 《最好的我們》

微笑面對衛校

期班的大家都對衛校頗有微詞

說我比較懶惰吧我選擇服從

學長們那麼辛苦地幫我們弄連署書
雖然沒有什麼效果但還是感激的
我私心地希望是因為我們是M115你才這樣
因為有你掛念的人才會如此上心關注
而不是因為你是實習幹部才插手
但我知道不可能的

其實我覺得

既然我們都來到了這間學校

我們理當瞭解到它不同於其他的

制度規定什麼的想必會比其他的更嚴謹

就算一開始沒有明定會跟歷屆不同

而我們會到衛校暑訓接受 EMT training

軍校生

應該要有服從的覺悟

或許說是 scouts 留下的概念吧

就算上級再怎麼低 EQ 高要求 令人討厭

我們在底層的這群人只能乖乖服從然後盡量找到自己的出路

尤其是軍費生們

選擇了就不要再抱怨了

這樣是對那時候自己的決定的不尊重

你捨得否定自己嗎?

至少我不願意

如果真的動怒了

只是證明了我們修養不過如此

以此警惕自己成為更好的人吧

微笑面對衛校的炎熱教室不合理體制低效率作業

至少我們還有假日
對吧。

你說的 要天天開心
我說的 要天天開心

這兩天的煩躁不是因衛校而是因為一些令人無力的事

我到底有沒有在成長? 

還是只是在長大?

Kenapa so susah?

Life has been hectic

with both dance club's performance coming up, I hardly have my own time

what to say more when there's volunteering group thingy to prepare, all those courses

it really menyakitkan my heart when I'm the one who cares more

hey SENIOR. sorry but I'm not rude for no reason

you really crossed the line a little

why are we always the ones suiting you huhh?

well of course you dance better than us, look, everyone says so.

but anyway I think you kind of fail as a leader

unlike other dance styles, girl style is not warm

It is just like a training course

people come and go

no interaction whatsoever 

you do as you wish

you command us

you blame us

OKAY.

I admit that we're really bad.

BUT NOT ALL OF US DIDN'T REVISE

AND NOT ALL OF US WERE LATE

STOP THINKING SO HIGHLY OF YOURSELF

seriously.

I don't feel happy dancing here.

I miss everyone back in Studio 23

I miss the atmosphere there

I miss everyone in Kuching

I hurt myself a little today

and the urge of tearing just hit me

I feel so frustrated and sad

I mean

people have different lines

for me 

being too much of a control freak and accusing me of something I've clearly not done are them

oh. and disturbing me when I'm focusing on a certain thing

or when you act like the same problem we share isn't yours, only mine.

gosh.

this is a super long ranting full of negativity

trust me I don't want this too

but I really can't bear it anymore

or else I would be studying biology experiment instead of updating my blog rn

cz I'm really too sakit hati already

Haih.

推薦

超好聽的!!

不想再在fb上po了 哈哈

某天晚上轉台時偶然聽到

讓黑暗黑到...

結果屁顛屁顛跑去google

居然是Yoga的 :D

很好聽很新奇很特別的古風搖滾

感

現在的我在侯機廳
國標社內賽還有熱舞排舞比賽都過了
那麼喜歡跳舞的我
沒有得到獎項
失望是一定的
有些事情 本來就是徒勞無功的啊
至少我有一點點努力吧?
看了影片之後發現到自己多麼地不足
技巧有多空泛
舞感有多糟糕
排舞不夠創意個性有趣
這次難過還有失望維持了蠻久
其實現在還是有點煩 哈哈
但我要回家啦啦啦
現在難過的是看不到紅蜻蜓 QAQ
情人節我還在馬來西亞 噢不
雖然說我沒有勇氣送他巧克力哈哈
耶耶耶 美食之旅要開始了

7 days

I'll be flying back next week!

I miss everyone back home, and of course the weather!!

Taiwan is getting colder these days

saw articles stating this weekend might be as low as 5 degree 

OHMYGOD

as you know, I'm very afraid of cold weather

I can stand wearing long sleeves and long pants for one whole day in Malaysia with no fans on.

HAHAHAHA I'm not afraid of the heat

just some updates with my coming events

I have ballroom dance competition (only in our club tho) this coming Monday

hot dance choreographing competition the next day

flight at 2335 on WEDNESDAY~

I haven't packed. 

I might be going out on Saturday to buy things back, especially food. hahaha

not sure what to buy yet.

gtg. Class soon :)

2016

2016年已經第五天了啊

其實好多好多想寫哦

覺得2015真的過得超快

因為太多事情了

我感覺的2015是從入伍訓開始的

或許說因為那是另一段旅程的開始

他們問我

誒 妳去年沒跨年嗎?

說實話我忘了。

在僑大

那時候

我在幹嘛?

應該是準備考試吧?

那時候一樣有門禁規定

一樣熄大燈

對於國醫的規定

我其實無感

雖然說來到國醫時間說長不短

這裡真的很溫馨

我覺得我是一個很幸運的人

從小到大都是

或許就是因為太幸運了

我遇到的都是好人

所以我依舊很傻很天真?

呵呵

先這樣

就寢時間到了 哈哈哈

然後我回來更了
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

2015
僑大
寒假回家
再回僑大
結業典禮
告別205
回到家裡不到一個星期
匆匆訂了機票
獨自一人飛來臺灣
謝謝小舅的朋友Nono姐的幫忙
一路照顧著我
才讓我安全抵達國醫報到
幸運的是學姐們沒有一絲不耐煩
雖然我是最後一個報到的僑生
因為最後一個到
學姐才記得我
我才被發到了210寢
然後
就這樣了
:)
我真的很幸運。
然後終於在2015看開了人猿 哈哈
卻覺得紅蜻蜓不錯
啊但青蛙配不上紅蜻蜓
所以
就這樣了
~

滷味

渾身散發著一種

魯味

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室友們說一起魯到畢業

噢不

所以只好這樣安慰自己了

看了鏈接之後

是不是覺得

還是乖乖讀書呢?

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大家新年快樂!!