Monday, January 16, 2017

Enough!

I seriously can't stand this! Must find a way to relieve my rage grrr
It's always been like this
They always love doing things last minute
Okay
Of course I have no problem if it's your own matter
But hey
Don't you do this when it's a group thing
What more to say when you are the leader
You think you can handle everything? Then do it all on your own, don't come to me and plead for help at the very last minute
I've clearly reminded you already but it seems like you never learn
Can't bring myself to be so impolite in front of you but I seriously have enough of this
You're not the only one who's busy, don't act like you're the only one.
Use your brain, prioritize your tasks. Crying over spilt milk is of no use.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Wish I were rich af

then I would be able to afford my own fees
I would be able to do many things
I would be able to eat a lot without looking at the price
I would be able to repay my parents financially
I would be able to buy a lot of things without paying attention to the price tag
I would be able to not stare at my bank book and feel sad
I wouldn't be so frustrated.

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

十天

Yay! :)
倒數回家十天啦啦啦啦
but before that I'll need to pay for the school regis fee and now the rates are really very scary..
I can totally see the view when I arrive in Kuching, I can feel the warmth in the air (though it's winter rn) hahaha I really miss Kuching a lot.
Schedule is quite packed, time is short.
21/01 - 04/02 TOO SOON LAHH.
Air ticket back costs so much, and the air tickets to Nepal is more expensive this time.
It happens that we'd be making our transit in KL using MAS. OH. IF I KNEW. I could have saved two tickets' worth of $$!!
haih. Anyway. As the assistant group leader it might be impossible too, cz before departing we'd need to have a final check on juniors' courses, check their luggage, finish packing our group luggage, babysit juniors. It's seniors' responsibility. I often wonder if I were a burden to my parents..
Every time I think of that, I feel homesick.
A dental senior came to see us this Sunday, and he told us a lot about of future, regarding our career.
I'm really unsure about my future, whether to stay or to return.
I'd definitely want to go back, for my family.
But returning would be a waste of time since I'll still need to follow Malaysia's system and the senior said that there's a queue right now for the graduates overseas to get into the government hospitals.
AH. IDK.

好久沒有來這裡 如果可以真的不想要呢 最近越來越覺得自己很有溝通交友障礙 大概已經到了缺陷的程度 我也不知道問題到底出在哪裡 每次都很羨慕有好朋友可以粘TT的那種人 有誰是真正喜歡一個人的時間呢 不多吧真的 不喜歡勉強別人 到最後永遠都像局外人 或許是我自己太...